Infertility:the struggle part 2

When we finally decided we are going to seriously get fertility treatment, i got a huge kick in the gut. A lot was playing in my head. To resort to treatment made me think, so I AM infertile, am i not? i mean if u seek treatment that must mean you are. I was a bit mental for a while. Just a short while though, say a couple of days hahahah So this phase made me think, there are women out there who are hesitating to seek treatment cos they feel, hey this cant be it, i CANT be infertile?! I'm telling people nowadays, stop driving yourself nuts. This is a challenge God want u to face so suck it in n face it.Really, denial isnt gonna help one bit. We did our treatment at LPPKN. My research (mode of research:google.ahem) told me that at LPPKN KL you have to wait up to two month to get to see the doctor. Living in johor, i did mine at the HSA LPPKN clinic and got appointment straight away. it was like less than a week wait. The first visit, the nurse set appointment for pap smear n to get my blood tested in case my hormone level is the problem. On the day i was due to get my pap smear done which is the first time ever for any vajayjay-related examination, i got nervous n had my menses.Which is not even due.Its embarassing how much a wuss i am. hahahh The next day the nerve menses stopped (obviously) n had my papsmear done n blood taken for tests. The nurse then set appointment for husband n i to see the doctor for sperm count n the tests result. So on the fixed date we went to see the doctor. DH took the sperm test and we waited to see the doctor. Turns out his count was above average n i had no cervix problem whatsoever and hormon was okay. A bit of a low count but nothing serious. Next i had to do the xray to see if blocked fallopian tube was the scum. I had my HSG (hysterosalpingogram) done at HSI. word of advice the nurse at lppkn fail to inform me is no intercourse from the day aunt flow dried up to the day to do HSG. Hey more on that later in Infertility: the struggle part 3! heheheheheh